stressed like anything. arghhh.. the numbers just add up to so much. and i'm so afraid it'll all mess up. my gosh.. in lotsa ways i really blame myself. i know its poor planning. after all that i've done in the past i should know better than to produce such crap. i am supposed to. rahh. i know i never wanted to do it in the first place. but having done it i should have given it my best shot but i obviously haven't and i know it. i can no longer find the motivation to do such stuff.. i dunno whats wrong with me.

todays supposed to be a good day. todays a special day.. but i get more and more worried as the week approaches its end. i hope and pray you'll get good results..