my eyes are gonna pop out of their sockets. i shouldn't have gotten one year's supply of contacts just a few months ago cos i'm pretty sure my degree is going up again drastically again by the end of the year.

i've as good as slacked my entire day away. smth is very wrong here. i have no sense of urgency, or worry or anything. i tell myself life after a's will be better cos you get to do what you want in uni. but you never really do get to do what you want, do you? and you can't just do only the things you want to do. its as gd as self indulgence and it'll never happen. there are bound to be things you dun want to do. only, recently i realise that i speak like anna but i dun act like anna. i easily come up with calm and carefully considered responses to my problems, to tell me what i know i should be doing, but it seems like they're coming from a stranger. like we're not the same person. its an intriguing experience, albeit an unwelcomed one..

hai. i shall go to bed. maybe i'll wake up earlier to finish reivisng the political part of the sg snapshots notes. okay thats partially an excuse for slacking as well. lesser slacking? heh. falling into the abyss.. down down down.. like the stupid helical structure of an alpha helix protein chain...