this is taking its toll.. feel so detached. dun understand what i'm thinking. i feel a separation btw who i really am and who i appear to be. only its not like intentional. it just somehow.. happens.. dunno whether this is good or bad. part of me seems to be screaming something in the back of my head which i cannot put a finger on. guess i'll only get my answer in a few days.. or maybe never. until something triggers something in my head i guess. then i'll understand, and probably emo it all over again.

i'm sensing all the wrong signals. alarm bells ringing like anything. only i don't exactly know how to stop it. i just hope it doesn't end up like the previous case. its... not good.. maybe i'm overreacting.

i've done NO studying today. and it seems like thats gonna be the case for tmr as well. goodness gracious. (no not the campaign)