I'm in a very inspired kind of mood but I realise that I don't have much to write. Perhaps because there isn't much of a point writing in here. There isn't much of a point in writing at all. But oh well. Here goes.

I woke up today feeling kinda lazy. I went to the bank to get my atm card and as I was in the queue I remembered I was supposed to get the christmas deco door gifts from caitlyn at 11.30 and it was already 11. lol. Thank goodness the whole application process was pretty fast. So I was happily home after that when I realised to my horror that my account book was missing. So I went back to the bookshop i visited on my way back home and scoured the shelves for my pass book but had no luck. I gave up, went to church and was really pretty frustrated when an additional something else cropped up. But I've only just remembered that the first one I turned to was not God but my friends. That is how much faith I've lost. But as the evening went by, I kinda found myself thinking that for all the guilt I carry with me, God will still walk with me. I don't know if the Lord was speaking to me, or if it was just me. But I do know one thing, and that is my Lord is the one true Lord who loves more than anyone else can. He is glory, power, mercy, faithfulness and everything good.

If there is one thing I'm supposed to pick up after so many events we've done, it's probably to give up control. Sometimes, you don't have to plan for everything. Sometimes, you don't have to have absolute control of everything. Perfection is how you define it to be. Sometimes, just letting things be and trusting that God is in control is enough. Things will be fine.

Maybe that's how it should be. Maybe it doesn't matter that I see no progress. Maybe God is already doing His work in him.

So I can do what I know I have been called to do. I just need some time to get rid of the impatience and harshness I've developed over the past 2yrs..