my feelings seldom fail me. and they proved themselves yet again. had this inkling right from the very first day, but decided to give the benefit of the doubt. oh well. i shall try to not be pissed and to forget that such a thing happened, but i know i will never let my guard down when it comes to you. take it whichever way you like. i'll probably not be trusting you anyway.

i dun think i take sides often. but i know for sure which side i'm on this time. haha.. yea. dun care bout everything. none of my business. anyway, there isn't spare energy to waste on unappreciated help.

2 weeks till huang cheng! crazy but worth it. =P

i kinda miss the rvians. sqdmates and disco and 2a and 4a. might not be very close to 4a, but at least there is the 4a feeling still. miss that big family feeling. haha.. 8 weeks have passed. so fast! so many things have happened. interesting journey. long way more to go!

i need to start making a conscious effort to speak and write in proper english! can feel my grasp of the language get weaker each day.

i like fairy tales. haha.. chanced upon an entire series of winnie the pooh at popular today. finally there are new tales that do not involve maths and science! feel like getting the whole series. we'll see if i feel rich enough after cny. =P on the way home, i resolved to get my pooh out of the luggage, though my mum would rather it stayed there cos its supposed to end up collecting dust if left in the open. but i took it out anyway. yay. haha..

bored. i shall go sleep.

this is the most interesting valentine's day i've ever had! haha.. no i didn't go on a date.

but anyway, we started the day with gift exchange and i finally got to know who my malaysian scholar angel is! he's a nice person. hm and so is my other angel/mortal jason. writing letters does help build some kind of bond btw the seniors and the juniors but it feels very weird now that the letter writing has stopped. cos most of us dun talk to each other face to face and without the letter thing there seems to be no way for communication. we'll see. i like the gifts! haha.. lotsa sweets and chocolates, 4 soft toys, 1 paper flower, a blue cup, a flobble ball plus earrings. thanks a lot!

then we went for cross country at mac ritchie as usual. i wasn't exactly in a mood for running but then things got a lot better when we started running. dun ask why. haha.. i have no idea. and i felt a lot better after the run! very suprising. plus managed to get a little medal for coming in btw 20th to 100th in mass run, which really wasn't very difficult cos more than half of the girls were strolling.. haha..

anyway we went to ang mo kio for dinner. and then i went home and saw the sunflowers. they are very nice. very bright feeling.. haha.. thanks a lot! for spending and for being so thoughtful. the flowers did serve their purpose. like them lots. haha.. very appreciated! =P

okay. gtg sleep. haha..

its only the first day of the week but i'm really tired already. haha..
i know there are things i can achieve. but i dun say them, not cos i'm being humble or anything but more of cos i dun dare. haha.. saying it makes me feel like i've given myself the assurance of success, which doesn't happen all the time. the qn is what can i do? perhaps not too much. yep. dun over-expect.
still have research for gp.. i wanna sleep sia.
ying1 xiang3 and deng1 guang1 are getting closer each day at huang cheng! hahaa.. i seriously think we'll break the rivalry thing both zhu3 are supposed to have based on past experiences. too much time to stone and gossip already.

l1r5 7
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sshist a2
hcl b3

i would be lying if i said i'm not disappointed. even though i feel like i have no right to be disappointed since i can still stay in hc, i am. my results made me think of lotsa things. bout psle, bout np, bout disco, bout hc. suddenly i realise that i have always been very hopeful, or if you want to look at it the other way, too ambitious. i hoped for a 270 for psle, at least an A in my grade 6 electone exam, 500bucks scholarship, that i would always be around for the people ard me, that i would lead my juniors well, that i will get 8a1s. but i think i overestimate my abilities. i cannot do everything i want to do. haha.. yea.

my parents are v happy with my results though. haha.. thats good.

perhaps i should start lowering my expectations. haha.. its not being zi bei its being realistic.

anyway, we had stj last saturday, 3rd feb. yay! very fun. haha.. 30 odd pple spending 900+ on food at fish & co.! the seniors paid a lot.. ><

let me tell you something really impt.

RVNP IS OFFICIALLY A GOLD UNIT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! xDDD

hahhaa.. we always were. always.