i am sianded. haha.. feel lifeless. i think i need to go back to school. or at least put some purpose back into my life. its quite relaxing to not have anything to do but it just deosn't feel very right. makes you lethargic. i woke up at 4.30am this morning though i slept at 1am. and i felt very awake! but there wasn't anything to do so i decided to go back to sleep. and there went half my day. and its so boring there;s nth to blog abt. for once in my life i was watching boring tv shows, willing time to hurry past so i can watch cong1 shang4 yun2 xiao1. like that's my sole aim for the evening. wa.

i shall sleep early. and wake up early tmr! but i dun know what to do after i've gotten up. sheesh. okay nvm. i only need to find stuff to do till 9.30am. then i can go out and my day will definitely not be as boring as today.

i packed my room today!!! well not exactly my room. just 2 cupboards, 2 shelves and 2 huge boxes. guess how long it took. SIX LOONG HOURS! almost died. but i've gotten them done so very happy. haha..

this was how the room looked like 2 hours after i had started.

another 2 hrs later..

took super long. lotsa letters. and flipping through all the research and writeups and gifts and letters from slc made me wanna cry. haha.. all the memories come pouring back. read some of the primary school letters too. some i wrote but never sent. i wonder why. haha.. but i realise how innocent and lame we used to be. writing bout lotsa crap. haha.. and friends forever seemed so real last time. the way its written in every card, like we believed it totally. then you read the older letters, those that come in during sec school and then you see stuff like, learning to let go and closing chapters in life. bout friendship at a deeper level. in a sense wishing for that everlasting friendship but knowing that its hard to come by.

wanted to go to bugis today but i finished only at 6 so didn't. well i would have gone if my relatives didn't suddenly decide to pop over for dinner. oh well. maybe i'll go on thurs or fri or something.

gonna get a large photo album to safe keep the many many photos.

slowly getting warmed up to this blog. =P

i'm gonna be real nice and do housework tmr. =/ nvm. i shall be nice.

i am really bored. so bored i've started playing with my tagboard colours. hahaa.. wanted red. still find it too strong for this skin. played with more than 10 combi! passed quite a lot of time. haha..

it used to my brother. now he's mad at every little thing. who cares about a promotion. you have enough money to live on. sok yan sok yan. everyday its sok yan. even a 16 year old like me can tell that something is not right. you'd rather send sok yan home then send aunty sandy home. whatever la. so much work to do but all you do is complain and kick a big fuss. who does all the work in the end? she has her own stuff to do hello! she cannot even finsh her own work yet you just keep complaining bout your own work keep rushing her. fine its adults play none of my business. then how i wish i weren't at home. something has changed i dun know what. you dun even care bout what you say anymore. a dozen promises and the next day you just forget. fine whatever. i feel like swearing but i shouldn't. won't. i'm blessed ain't i? i dun starve i dun beg what more can i ask for? seriously i'm not in dire straits. i just have to get these all off me.

yea. who am i kidding. you never meant it. i'll get what i want without your help.

merry christmas. no. happy boxing day. a little too late for the christmas greeting. =)

if you have to strain your eyes to see the posts pls click on 'story' again. i have no idea why the right font face sin't used the moment you enter this page so if you do you could kindly enlighten me.

tired. hahaa.. gonna sleep. good night. =P

i have been having lots of fun recently. haha.. many times its not the activity thats memorable but the people. exco outing attendance was quite bad i would think. but i had fun all the same. i dun think the 4 of us talk to each other often but that one short outing proved that the bonds are there. and they are pretty strong. i'm glad i know my friends.

went to raynard's bbq tgt with huiyi after that. all his relatives were there i think. didn't do much. talked to a few of his relatives, got to know more bout the different jcs and some people's thoughts bout education. basically just talked a lot. somehow with xiangyun and huiyi and raynard, time doesn't distant us from each other. no matter how seldom we meet, we always have lots to talk bout. there are no barriers. we understand and we present ourselves as we are, confident of the changes we've undertaken, knowing that we'll always be accepted.

honesty is very impt.

dejected sia. hahaa.. some pple dun understand.

i am hooked onto fantasies. haha.. read nth bout tales. tall tales. but magical in a sense. =P oh yah! i finally managed to persuade my sis and my dad to sponser me an mp3! lala. haha.. i cut my hair this morning. super short. dun exactly like it but it doesn't matter. its just hair.

i have decided that the font is really too small. but i'm too lazy to change it right now. live with it. heh.

class chalet was good! stoned and bridged and talked quite a bit. frog-chasing-kittens are interesting. everybody has grown up! haa.. dong3 shi4 already. i think its this trust that keeps us all bonded. dun regret the sacrifice of sleep. =P

went out with xy. took a train to changi and back to orchard after a 10 mins walk at the airport. too cold. 4th trip from home to the east end of sg for this week. quite unbelievable. walked ard orchard, talked some. i realise work experience is impt. but lazy me has not and am not intending to get one. ><

pretz make good snacks. and the tagboard was supposed to be red but the colour is too strong.

sleepy. time to sleep. good night!

woohoo!

lalala! i finally got my new blog! well i really like the template. the 'notepad' version of it has been in my com since like a year ago i think.. saved quite a few other templates but i still like this the best. =P

i am quite excited but also quite apprehensive bout jc but i suppose everyone's the same.

christmas is so near! no gifts this year. cards, yes. =P

i have decided to slowly adjust my sleeping hours. else i'll only be in school in the afternoon next year. and guess what? i finally realise what it is that i always thought was vaguely familiar bout the date of my appointment to eye centre. its on the 14th of feb and that's valentine's day. well not that i matters to me but i cannot believe i didn't realise that before.

goodness. i really like this template. =D i'm not a potter fan but i did play a version of this song with my ex-lesson-mates the first time we all went on stage. i kinda screwed that up but that's not the point. the point is we had fun on stage and this song brings back some memories. haha..