today was a realllyy weird day. terrible morning. you know those kind those just v sian kinda days when nth is wrong yet everything feels wrong? yea. its the worst cos theres nth that can be changed to improve the situation cos in the first place nth is wrong. its a weird feeling. but its a bad feeling. in fact i wrote a long emo post. haha.. but i deleted it before posting it. its just to put into words the bad in that bad feeling.

anyway. things got slightly better after i took like a half hr nap or so. woke up a little less moody. then electone lesson which was pretty gd today. then narnia which turned out pretty much God's plan i guess.. i didn't want to watch it. but having watched it i think i know why God led me to it. and then bigger suprise when i got back home. even if its just 'hey', it means a great deal. haha..

i'm v behind schedule!! yesterday 1 topic. covered that today, tgt with another 2 topics. but i'm short of 3 topics! rahh. and tmr like high possibility gonna be spending a lot of time out. my 7 day buffer has effectively been cut to 5. i expect another bout 3 more days to be used up. that leaves me with bout 2 only! wah cannot. must mug faster!

funny how this is suddenly alive. haha..

there's lots to do. cip and electone and mugging. i amazingly have no mood for movies or shopping. lets just say i feel like a hermit these days.. dun feel like talking much either. kinda prefer talking to myself. i'm 1 topic behind schedule! >< supposed to finish superposition today. never even touch. darn. tmr must mug faster. but tmr start chem eqm le. i hate that topic. i think i'll get stuck. nono cannot. cos friday's schedule is also messed up alrdy. no time to waste!

i promised to study hard. and i will.

4 and counting.

i dun know if its good or bad to have a blog. at times like this i really need it just as a means of letting out everything. yet theres always this nagging feeling that doing this only gets me more upset. i think i just have to ride this out on my own. haha.. no one can convince me. i need to convince myself.

have a little faith.

i'm tired. and its only been 3 days.

i realise if i want to i can study quite a lot in a day.. inequalities and electone and i'll be done for the day. i must stick to schedule. i hope i rmb all that i've studied.

everything reminds me of you. the only time i think less is when i'm studying. haha.. okay go study.

study study study!

that stupid tv show song make me very sad. darn i'm weaker than you.

i hope you're okay.. i wonder whats life there gonna be like. why am i talking to myself. i told you its all the emoness abt sichuan. sichuan is a big disaster. but thats cos many are involved right. but individually, small disasters are disasters nonetheless. i'm making no sense. i dunno how to psycho myself man. my mind is clouded with the same thoughts i know to a certain extent is just unjustified worry yet i can't shake off the feeling. i hate this kinda feeling. have faith right? yea have a little faith he says..

i will and i must do well for BT2.

be healed. and come back soon.

a few entries ago i decided i would make my blog a happy one. cos every other blog i see just seems upsetting.

i shall refrain. though i think even an idiot can tell. i dun wish to explain anything to anyone. so dun ask.

yea.

falling like the rain. ironic how hasn't been raining.

HIGH on air =DDDD

i'm BACK! wahaha..

in a very touri-sy mood. i wanna go brazil and africa and paris and christmas island and all the other exotic places! so fun. i'll spend a lot on tours in future. haha..

but i won't go anywhere thats infested with lizards. or ants. or flies. meaning no summer trips to western areas.

i wanna visit farm though. the furthest i've gone is australia and the farmers there gave us water from the stream, where we washed off the mud on our shoes. kinda interesting don't you think?they dun even boil the water! but we drank and we were fine. hahaa.. then the wire fencing for the cows give slight electric shock when you touch them. went with my cousins that time.

the only other time i got almost as far was in sec3 when we went japan with charlene choonyen and weiguo. very fun too... though it was only the countryside and our schedule was so packed i came back after the 5 days feeling more exhuasted than before i left. it was refreshing though. refreshing but exhuasting. haha.. and i buddied this p5 girl. shes so mischievious but so adorable! haha.. memories. haha.. i must go tour again some day! when i earn my own money. which is like years later. nvm i will still go tour some day. =P

okay. i think i better go do my work. so slack today! so slack everyday! wahaha.. kk. i go mug le before i change my mind again.. lets hope i dun get stuck on a qn again else i'll close the book for sure. =)

gogo! HOLIDAY!!!! =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD mug now, play later!! =DDDDD