I am pissed!! Like very very pissed! And I cannot say it. What is this!! ARGH. I am very short of patience today. Maybe its because I am very very tired, with the stay over and the rushing around and the roller blading. Cannot think straight. Cannot decide if I'm angry cos I'm grumpy or because it is smth that I should be angry about.

I better go sleep soon. Cos I think I need all the patience I can summon tmr.

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So angry. =( And I'm starting to think wrong things again. arghhhhh.

Talk. We must talk.

Everything happens for a reason. Now I have more resolve to do what I was afraid to. And I will.

I've covered 1/6th of my excel guide book! Does that count as knowing basic excel? =)))))) I sure forget what I cover one lor. >< Tomorrow there's job interview! For which company I don't even know.... Oh well. I doubt I'll get the job. The pay's too high for an unexperienced employee! Even I know the rates. Sheesh..

I have a big problem keeping track of my schedule. Maybe that was why I used to keep a planner of sorts.. Let's see.

Thursday
Interview
Pool
Electone

Friday
Shopping
Honours night
Stayover

Saturday
Breakfast
Roller blading event

Sunday
Church

Monday
Tuition

Tuesday

Wednesday
Bro's Birthday

Thursday

Friday
Prom

What do I need to settle?
Msg pple bout event
Excel!
Electone - which I have daoed for a couple of days. ><
Prom stuff
Find a job
SHOP

What else do I wanna do?
Learn taekwondo!
Find/make an interesting gift
Christmas card shopping!
Own that dumb guy who wiped out my tw troops

Eeyer. I cannot think of gift ides tomorrow.. No time.. =C I feel like shopping after electone tomorrow. Haha.. Maybe I will! Since I'll be at clementi.. Hmm.. Nah. I'll come home and look for origami stuff online!

I am retarded. hahaa.. I SHALL LOOK FOR ORIGAMI STUFF NOWWWWW.

cheer ups!!

I have a very bad habit of blogging when I'm not supposed to and not blogging when I should. Cannot help it. Life after A's has been really good. It feels like the exams ended more than a month ago, yet it has merely been a week or so. Ahh.. Shuang-ness.

Holidays are exciting. And no, no idiot's spoiling anything. LOL. I can't believe I'm saying this. But my impression of this one is never going to change. No more excuses. For this special case, it's guilty until proven innocent.

I've got lots to do! Lots that I want to do. That makes a whole lot of difference. Haha.. Lotsa people to catch up with too!

Alright! Till then! =D

I'm in a really good mood. Really scared and really excited. I wonder how I'm gonna sleep tonight. hahaha.. Oh my kill me. I've gone crazy. Tmr we'll be one day closer to the end of A's!!! Tmr I will be over and done with the paper - not the subject, I detest the most.


Yayness to that. =P

I woke up a while ago and told myself I have to attempt at least an essay today. Now I find myself in front of the computer with absolutely no intention of doing a single piece of writing. I think I'm digging my own grave. I don't even remember the last time I wrote. Oh I do. It was prelims. That was more than a month ago. I cannot bring myself to start writing though.. So I've decided on an easier way out - blogging. I really think I'm laying out my own 'green mile'.

Goodness.

I had better get started on a comprehension, just to get used to writing again..

It's difficult to describe what's going through my head right now. On one hand, I think I'm not that worried because I've been through the O levels and so this isn't anything new. On the other hand, I feel unnervingly a lot less confident for the A's than the O's. Its like, before you attempt an O lvl science paper, you are already aware that there is a very high chance of doing well (almost guaranteed in fact), given your consistency and past results. Not so for the A's. Every paper feels like an SS/Hist paper we did in O lvls. No guarantee of a good grade and no past results to prove that you more or less have what it takes to do well in the A's. Nonetheless, I don't think I feel that anxious about any of the papers as yet. I am very worried, but I think things will only hit me when I receive my grading slip. It always takes me a while to wholly understand and appreciate - or rather, recoil from, the impact of something so great.

Yet here I am, taking an easy way out. Sheesh.

Its more than an exam. Its expectations and dreams, as cliche as it may seem.

*yawns* What a cool, lazy morning.. haha.. I set my alarm to wake me up at 6.30 but I conveniently switched it off, my sub-conscious mind somehow aware of the fact that I went to bed close to 1am last night. That leaves me with just tonight and tomorrow to adjust my sleeping patterns so I don't wake up a zombie on Monday.

But that has effectively ruined my plans for the day. I don't have time to finish a math paper before I make my way to lakeside for more studying as usual. Maybe I'll swop. Do the physics paper first, then the math paper at lake side. I need to memorise my physics definitions! I hate memorising things. I don't mind learnign concepts and applying stuff but I detest memory work. One of the reasons why I refused to take biology. lol.

Word challenge is addictive. Very addicitve in fact. I have yet to play it for today but I think I better not or I might not even time to finish a physics paper before I leave my house.

Lotsa expectations. haha.. Guess they mostly come from myself. Oh well.. Deal with it. The game's only starting. If only it were simply a game without actual consequences though. But that would make any form of success insignificant as well. Haha..

Alrightt. Back to work.

My smithy's next upgrade level is 10hours!!!! ><