I'm in a very inspired kind of mood but I realise that I don't have much to write. Perhaps because there isn't much of a point writing in here. There isn't much of a point in writing at all. But oh well. Here goes.

I woke up today feeling kinda lazy. I went to the bank to get my atm card and as I was in the queue I remembered I was supposed to get the christmas deco door gifts from caitlyn at 11.30 and it was already 11. lol. Thank goodness the whole application process was pretty fast. So I was happily home after that when I realised to my horror that my account book was missing. So I went back to the bookshop i visited on my way back home and scoured the shelves for my pass book but had no luck. I gave up, went to church and was really pretty frustrated when an additional something else cropped up. But I've only just remembered that the first one I turned to was not God but my friends. That is how much faith I've lost. But as the evening went by, I kinda found myself thinking that for all the guilt I carry with me, God will still walk with me. I don't know if the Lord was speaking to me, or if it was just me. But I do know one thing, and that is my Lord is the one true Lord who loves more than anyone else can. He is glory, power, mercy, faithfulness and everything good.

If there is one thing I'm supposed to pick up after so many events we've done, it's probably to give up control. Sometimes, you don't have to plan for everything. Sometimes, you don't have to have absolute control of everything. Perfection is how you define it to be. Sometimes, just letting things be and trusting that God is in control is enough. Things will be fine.

Maybe that's how it should be. Maybe it doesn't matter that I see no progress. Maybe God is already doing His work in him.

So I can do what I know I have been called to do. I just need some time to get rid of the impatience and harshness I've developed over the past 2yrs..

I'M GOING TO WRITE IN UPPER CASE BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN DOING IN OFFICE SINCE MORNING. TYPE IN STUFF In UPPER CASE. IT IS SO REPEITITIVE THEY SHOULD GET A ROBOT TO DO IT. MAYBE JAPAN TECHNOLOGY HAS REALLY COME IN HANDY. BUT IT IS VERY TIME CONSUMING AND TEDIOUS. BUT NO THINKING INVOLVED. JUST TYPING AND SORTING. I THINK MY BRAINS ARE ROTTING. HAHAHA. MY DAY SEEMS TO START AT 5.30PM WHEN I LEAVE THE OFFICE. THEN I FEEL ALIVE. ESPECIALLY IF THERE IS STUFF TO ATTEND. LIKE OUTING TMR! =D NOW I KNOW WHY SOMEONE CAN BE OUT ALL THE TIME. ITS SO ADDICITIVE. AND KNOWING THAT YOU NOW HAVE MORE MONEY TO SPEND MAKES IT ALL THE BETTER. HAHAHA.

I AM FAT. I NEED TO EXERCISE. I CAN SEE FATS SPILLING OUT OF ALL THE WRONG PLACES. OH NOOO.

COME BACK SOON!

I'm employed! Working as a temp clerk at moe hq. I was quite excited when the agency called me but I didn't expect to start work so soon. Wanted to enjoy my dec holidays. Its kinda busy now. There's work from 8.30 to 5.30. I have tutition twice a week and electone on tuesday evenings. There goes 3 out of 5 of my weekday evenings. Haha.. But I kinda like the busy-ness of it all. I think I miss that. I don't like to be busy studying but I don't mind being busy with activities. Feels like when I was back in rv. I deliberately took on much less in JC because I was kinda tired with the endless activities back in rv. But I find myself wasting a lot of time eventually cos I had too much to spare. Busy-ness is better. A little tiring some times but the experiences are worth it. Yea. And I don't think rubbish. HAHAHA. I am incapable of thinking deep. I think only rubbish if I have too much time. And I give up trying to write properly. I think I have forgotten how to write complex but fluent and captivating sentences. Oh you can see that I'm bored. I AM. ><

I'm so bored. ><
Yesterday I thought, yay finally I get to stay at home and rest. But only half the day has passed and I'm dying from boredom already. sheesh..

I'm too bored to blog. hahaha..

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