i am back to blog. and hopefully more sane tonight.

hm. i raised 24 dollars for charity on saturday! =P running for a good cause is good motivation. besides, its been really long since the last time i did 4.8km.

pan's labyrinth on sunday was quite interesting. though i can only draw one sad conclusion from the movie. it really is a labyrinth, with reality and fiction, love and hatred, hope and devastation all fused tgt. but i feel like its trying to show that dreams only come true in our imagination, literally in our dreams. reality seems dark and bleak. which i totally disagree! hahaa.. but very thought provoking movie. makes you think bout what's in this world.

well anyway. i'm supposed to be researching on private housing. i shall do that tmr.

i feel like i need maths tuition. >< very bad. but maths is suddenly very difficult.

i dunno why i'm blogging. i feel very moody. sleep. haha..

i think i am super not independent sia. yucks.

walking in the rain at night is super fun. you should try it one day if you have not. esp when there's no one on the streets cos its Raining. very very fun. i am mad. haha.. how not to be mad. everybody's going crazy. anyone sane left? today we spent half an hour trying to figure out which dumb extension cord is faulty. and then we couldn't change it media resource was not open. but we did more than 2 rounds of sounds today so its not that bad. =p

if i make it and become a doc in future. i will make it a point to NOT be like a know-it-all and treat my patients like dumb low IQ pple. what crap.

let's sit down and talk! so lame. so so lame. i dun think things had to come to this point. and i dun intend for it to worsen either. so weird actually.

see lotsa ugly sides of people lately. i wouldn't say i'm perfect i'm definitely not but there are certain things that really get on my nerves. like apathy and oblivion. some people are totally unaware are perhaps they just dun care bout what's happening ard them. i'm not talking bout things in the world i'm only refering to day to day events. and then there are those who never analyse and think through stuff properly. they dun even listen to the full story, they tune out whatever they dun want to hear or know and then criticise. wow wonderful!

i think i can take jokes and lame crap. but there are some things that never fail to piss me lots.

and just a side note. not everyone does things the way you do.

i have decided to post again cos there are some stuff i have to blog abt.

seriously, can we not stereotype pple? it is true that lotsa prcs are not so nice and caring. but it isn't true for each and every foreigner. i dun think its fair to pass judgement on pple you barely know. it just reflects very badly on you and your country, which includes the other locals around you.

i totally disagree with being agressive. yes you should fight for what you want but there is no need to go all the way to being agressive. and there is room for failure. you don't always get what you want. you dun always get what you work for. you won't always be successful. you will fall some day but that's not the worst thing that can happen.

and all this emphasis on portfolio is making me a little uncomfortable. yes portfolio is impt but its not everything. you dun do cip for the sake of portfolio. neither do you join certain cca or take on leadership positions for the sake of portfolio. passion and interest should come first, portfolio second. at least that is what i think.

and we need to be more open minded! we dun have much experience. we dun know lotsa things. i think we should still keep our eyes open and not rush into things. yep. after all, we still have lotsa time.

happiness is a choice. you choose whether or not you wanna make an effort to be part of the class, og, cca whatever. you can also choose to isolate yourself and refuse to make new friends. its all up to you. one thing to note though. if you choose to make your own life difficult, then dun complain.

its not how often we meet up that matters. its whether or not we feel as close as before whenever we meet, no matter how seldom, that matters.

i should stop thinking bout some stuff. haha.. its bad to ponder over something for too long cos your imagination starts going wild and anything comes to mind. then your judgement will start to fail you. haha.. what do you do then? stop thinking, clear your mind, go sleep and everything will be a lot clearer the next morning. provided you dun dream abt it of course.

that's all. very summarised version of all the deeper thoughts of the past 2 weeks. =P

warning! long post!

where should i start. okay.

8th jan. first time we gathered as CTs. first time we meet our classmates. rude shock i would say. i didn't think i would be in an MAP class. neither did i know MAP meant PRC class. thank goodness there was still guansen. and then we sat in a circle and stoned. and i thought oh my there are less than 10 locals.

9th jan. lotsa pple wanted to transfer out. the prcs were quite pissed when we didn't bother with the class discussion on class item and flag. through the 'discussion' we realised actually half the class are locals. then we had AMAZING race in SCHOOL. why? cos it was raining. only the first station had anything to do with class bonding.

10th jan. war games. we won. =D ATHENA! and we decided to do our class flag.

11th jan. lectures plus class item.

actually i think the class flag and item were the most beneficial activities in terms of class bonding. we broke ice in a sense, working tgt on smth for the first time. and it was then that we realised we have jasmin can laugh non-stop. mingyi has a thing for dancing. yingzhi can follow dance moves super well. darrell naizeng and kuangyong can break dance! lynn can be high too. cai ning's new name's cai na. jie hao acts cute. of course there is the rest of the class. laughing does wonders.

12th jan. we didn't makes the auditions for class item, sadly. but the effort didn't exactly go down the drain. at least we are much more comfortable with each other now. campfire atmosphere wasn't exactly fantastic but i dun suppose its the council's fault. it was raining and an indoor campfire would have had to suffice. in the end our class decided to zi high. and so we had quite some fun actually. singing and dancing. haha.. then the rain stopped so we went to watch the lighting of the 'fireball'. quite cool. haha..
dinner at kap was next. but we had to sit outside mac and like at 2330 the mac staff came to choo us off cos we were 'blocking the way and making too much noise'. spoiler! so we went home before we even had much interaction.

13th jan. OG outing! =D we had a stayover at yvonne's place. i wouldn't say attendance was very good but its just nice to see everyone again. hopefully we'll meet up regularly! and RYAN! stop scandalising everyone. ><

14th jan. nth much. church imm then i went to sleep like really early.

and then this week! i cannot really rmb exact events. but anyway, the angels and mortals started to become more active. so the letter writing began. turns out i have 2 angels and 1 mortal. but i strongly suspect my angel and mortal is the same person. haven't found out the identity of the other angel though. so dumb la. next time must rmb not to include cca in self-intro. it totally gives away your identity.
and i joined huangcheng! backstage sounds. =P had quite a lot of difficulty deciding on whether or not i should go for it then i told myself that i don't want to slack anymore. haha.. must make good use of my time in hc, esp since i might not be able to stay. at least it will be a fulfilling 3 months. so i'm booked 4-5 days a week from 4pm to 8pm including sat afternoons. that led to the next diff choice. cca! its not easy to find a cca that i'm interested in and that allows me to have huangcheng as top priority. but after much consideration, i decided to join interact and harmoc! yes. i shall learn guitar from my dad and i already have a guitar at home it should be quite feasible.
yesterday we went to yingzhi's house for tennis and badminton. and in less than a few minutes i flew 2 balls out of the tennis court and into the wilderness. the last time i played at my aunt's place, more than 2 flew out of the court. so i hereby declare that anna has oficially given up on tennis. a shuttle cock is easier to control. >< anyway, my muscles are aching! proves just how unfit i am. it wasn't even very intensive nah. i wonder when np will do 6.3 round pandan reservoir again. hoepfully we will.

i have spent a super long time typing this entry. but its like only what happened the past 2 weeks. my brain is already dead though. i shall write more reflective stuff tmr. hopefully i rmb. =P

its been AGES since i last came online and even more AGES (if there is such a thing) since i blogged! life has been fast paced but really good! i need sleep so i shall make this a short entry. will have lots lots more to talk abt the next time i blog which is probably during the weekends. anyway i know i want to stay in hc. its just the right feeling. its what i want and its what i know holds lots for me. i really hope i get 6 for o's else i think i will cry. already starting to feel attached to the school. and of course my og and my class. i feel myself. this is the right feeling. and i trust my feelings.

gogo! off to school! i haven't fallen asleep in any lecture or tutorial, AMAZINGLY, considering how boring some or should i say, half of them are. the enthusiasm just keeps you going. like high all day.

OG24 07s6J

so what if we're a PRC class? =P

oh man. the pace has picked up! life is getting exciting! hahaha!

okayokay. let's see. yesterday.
last day with og24 yet it was the day we really got to know each other better. we finally are an og. yay! the obscene forfeit and the violent hc boy plus the soapy waters were highlights for games. that guy over girl pumping is super obscene. we almost won okay! just one water bomb away. so close! and that crazy person who tried to wrestle and almost strangled poor jeromy is really mad in the head. good thing he recovered. slippery slope was really fun la. though its quite obvious that its impossible to get to the top. there's this part no one can every get past, especially on fours. but it was really good. and og dinner rocks! so much fun. there was so much more than the pizza and sparkling juice. more things like bonds and fun and friendship and spirit! yay og24! i totally dun regret not attending campfire. =P

and today. i woke up with stinging eyes. very tired. dragged myself out of the house. and then stoned ard in church while waiting for the ice breakers to end. i must say the time we spent crapping really helped us all a lot. i guess we smashed our own 'ice'! i started having doubts bout some pple. and then when i had to stone at the hmv at city link for 4 hours, occasionally entertaining sec1s i realised a lot. i realised how superficial some people are. but i also realised how nice and warm some people are. thanks to the nice people and no thanks to the dao-ish i-can't-be-bothered-with-you people. and so church orientation ended for me, not the sec1s. couldn't stay over cos of that edusave thing tmr.

anyway, i came home feeling dead tired. and i still am really tired. but anyway. i cam online and guess what? everyone started going 'what's your class?' and so i checked and realised to my great suprise that there're at least 6 rv girls in my same class! can you imagine! haha.. sudden surge of adrenaline la! explains why i have the means to write such a long entry. oh and the og photos from kwan helped a lot too! cos i wanna see them. so have to wait to get them downloaded. =P

oh my class is 07s69

okay. effects of adrenaline are short-lived. good night.

wa sian. haha.. either
1) i am really tired now
2) the talks have quickly drained the initital euphoria
3) my og is not so fun
either way it doesn't make a difference. i would say i am very impressed with the school spirit but i am equally curious about what goes on behind the scenes. i think our og needs a bit more teamwork and more high pple. the games aren't that bad but i find the dances actually break more ice than the games.

i am sian man. i hope we'll be loads better tmr. at least there are only bout 3 or 4 talks in the morning. plus the principal isn't the first to speak, for once.

yea. i've abided by my new year resolutions till now! tmr i shall touch my pieces. plus being myself means i won't smile at you if i dun want to and dun see a need to. dun stare expectantly with wide open eyes cos that's the perfect way to annoy me.

went shopping like the whole day today! legs aching like anything already. walked from ps to orchard and then back again. thank goodness my dad offered to give us a lift home. haha..

the past few days have been exciting! kinda looking forward to school. dunno what it'll be like but that's what makes it exciting. ahh. shouldn't get too excited. else tonight cannot sleep. school ends late tmr! hmm.

i feel alive again. haha.. thanks to the past and coming days of interesting stuff.

oh and my new year resolutions.
1) to be myself.
(my sis just randomly came to lock my msn)
2) to be more daring!
3) to do quiet time daily
4) to touch my electone at least. eh. once every 2 days!
5) dun waste time

yup. that's all. =P

the past 2 days have been really eventful! haha.. yea suddenly i'm alive again. went jogging plus ice skating plus walking yesterday. jogged a longer distance this time. and i've finally learnt the basics of ice skating! skill level no longer zero. thrilling and enjoyable. must thank my 'guide' else i would have fallen quite a few times. haha.. went to imm and queensway to shop ard and were abt to leave we met a hyperactive kid. didn't know what he wanted at first. then he showed us this card, which was obviously written by his parents, telling us not to give him money, showing the various buses that led to his house plus his name and contact number. quite smart i would think. we realised he was on the wrong side of the road so we brought him to the other side and he really ran up the escalator but sadly missed his bus by just a few seconds. got him a drink plus sweets while waiting. guess it made him really happy. stayed with him till he got on to the bus before leaving. haha.. hope he has a happy new year too! he even wiped the wet bus seats for us la! maybe we'll meet again! =P

and as if yesterday's exercise wasn't enough, there was more walking today! we had ot dinner at marina and then we decided to watch the fireworks at 2230. so we walked to some empty space and sat down but it started drizzling so we decided to walk on to find shelter. the road amazingly led to a dead end so we were forced to turn back. this time we got to another empty space with lotsa circular stones but we decided that there were too many trees so we walked some more. we waited even under the rain. 12 pple under 4 umbrellas. and then when it was 2230 we realised there were no fireworks! so we decided to wait till 2300. but still no fireworks! then someone turned ard or smth and we realised the fireworks were BEHIND us! and we had a fantastic view with lotsa trees in front of us. WOW! so we hurriedly back tracked cos we realised the view got better and we ended up back at the open space with the circular stones. by that time the fireworks was over. and then dear jianrui told us he had already seen the 2230 fireworks cos he went to get drinks. shocking news. my one and only qn was why didn't you tell us we were facing the wrong direction then. but nvm. i suppose it just happened. the 4 of us cinderellas plus ruian had to be back by midnight so we decided to give the 0000 fireworks a miss. but we took super long to get back to the mrt station cos we couldn't get cabs or buses. ended up counting down and watching fireworks behind lotsa trees cos we were still on the way to the mrt station. finally got to the station slightly past 12. so that was how i spent my last few hours of 2006. walking with my ot. hahaha.. interesting. never expected that.

so there. my last 2 days of 2006. Very interesting if you would ask me. =D

cinderella no more! we got home was past midnight. hahaa..