I didnt have anything to write about a while ago, but I felt like writing so I went to look for smth to write about. As I was looking through stuff, I rmbed that I would be going down to Taman Jurong CC tmr evening to visit the organisers who sent us down as "Sg ambassadors" to the World expo in Aichi, Japan in 2005. It has been quite some time back and I didn't want to go down and have nth to talk abt, with regards to the trip that I have been really privileged to have been sent to, so I rumaged my precious box for anything that would jolt some memories. I managed to find my notebook and a photo album, and they were good enough.

I realise I used to be a lot more observant than I am right now. Other than jotting down things like I enjoyed painting the scultures, or I had fun interacting with the Japanese students, I actually wrote things like, 'prepared blue tarps for painting - good planning' or 'invited artists to share ideas and opinions - creative thinking'. I think I've kinda lost the knack for planning and organising events alrdy. I don't think I watch these details as much, or even at all these days. =S

Another thing in my reflections in the notebook struck me, and come to think of it, it might have been part of the reason why I eventually was selected to be a disco exco. I always rmb myself as one with very little confidence in my abilities and in particular, my creativity, back in secondary school. But I saw myself writing things like 'maximise yourself in whatever you do' and 'be creative, be original, challenge yourself' and 'be forthcoming' and 'be proud of what you do'. And I wrote those phrases a few times on different days. Loooking at the handwriting, I probably was scribbling those down as someone was talking abt them, which proably means that those phrases were the ones that stood out and spoke to me very strongly. And I suddenly realise that back then, even though I knew my weaknesses, I kept trying and putting in a lot of effort to overcome them. Perhaps that is why I made the Exco interview even though I thought I was making it very clear that I didn't want to be successful in the interview. =X But of course I've never regretted Disco even till this day. But thats not the point. The point is, I've become a lot weaker over the past few years!! I no longer challenge myself to such a point and I no longer have the drive to do so. I used to wonder why I could wake up to study for an hr and then go back to sleep for 30mins and continue this cycle through the entire night, just to finish mugging bio or geog properly, back in rv, but not be able to do that ever since I got into hc. Well now I know. Sheesh. It makes me all the more convinced that if I qualify for a double degree (and I really am hoping that I do =S), I would go with my passion and do econs and accountancy although there are like 44 modules to take in total. =X

Okay I think I'm crazy. But I've been thinking about life a lot lately. I used to have a sole purpose in life - to spread and be a testimony to God's love and kingdom. But I've been kinda dry and down as of late. Perhaps its time to challenge myself the way I used to, to pick myself up and do the things I know I am on Earth for. To stop induging in my own emotions and do my part in this play, where all life's a stage, for an audience of One.

Work today was boring as usual.

BUT

Today's Wednesday and Wednesdays rock. We went to Gombak for our regular weekly runs and did 4.8km this time. It's 0.4km lesser than last week's but our pace was sustained throughout unlike last week's. I think we're all improving lots! And we did caterpillar while xj went crazy at our last round. And applause for ch for doing 12 rounds with us! =D

It was good exercise and amazingly, a very good mid-week break. We went for dinner/supper after that and I think I have probably gained back all the fats I lost running. Lols. But whatever, I really enjoy time with squadmates!

I still cannot type properly and its so annoying! I can type perfectly well with 2 fingers on each hand but that isn't the proper way of typing and I've been trying to hone my skills ever since I started work. Unfortunately, I'm not making much progress. Maybe I should just stick with using 4 fingers. =X

You still have me under your thumb and it sucks. I wonder why I even tried. What was I trying to prove? That I'm strong enough? That things will be all nice and sweet the way you described it to be? You prob won't even know I'm mad at you. Maybe I'm being anal. But whatever. Sheesh. I will not be affected by you.

Oh whatever.

I'm very excited about salsa and taiwan! Haha.. Really hoping we'll get to do both!

I was SO tired and SO unproductive at work today. I must sleep early tonight. But eh actually I doubt I will. Sheesh. I amazingly don't feel tired at night but I really cannot keep awake from 2.30 to 4 every afternoon. I shall make sure I don't take uni modules that start around that time in the day in future. =X

I'm getting really excited about salsa. I hope we do join some class soon! hehs. Hopefully la huh.

Alright my dad's back with shampoo so I can finally go shower. Yays.

Since I'm waiting for cat and the rest to come over for mahjong, let me blog a little about yesterday's events. I really enjoyed myself. =D

Morning was the ntu talk and after listening to what they have to say about nanyang business school, I now have a much much better impression of it. Nonetheless, it'll still be my last choice, mainly because of distance and school environment. I am seriously considering taking business and accountancy now though. It seems accountancy isn't what I thought it to be. Its not just numbers. There's a lot more and it might very well be more suitable for me than econs. I still like econs though. But of course, I need to qualify for a double degree in the first place. =X

Dinner at botak jones with 2a was good! Even though it wasn't air-conditioned. Haha.. After which we spent a lot of time trying to figure out what else to do. Headed down to taka's basement for Venezia in the end and ended up hanging around at the benches. The amazing things we do. We should really just find some air-conditioned place next time because all we love and end up doing after out meals is to stone and talk. Don't get me wrong, its always a great time of catching up and entertainment. Its what we do. =P Some of us went back after that while the rest of us finally headed down to macs at I've forgotten where, because the cafes were pretty muched packed still. The macs there have weird things! Like shaka-shaka chicken, which really just is Mc chicken's chicken patties and chilli powder.

Anyways, I enjoyed myself! I enjoyed Valentine's day, amazingly. Haha.. Oh and thanks bernard for the pretty roses we got, and marcus for the Venezia! And thanks to Eileen How (Kuai Le =P) for the encouragement in the morning. Its really the little things that keep me going. Even things as simple as taking care not to talk abt the past. Hehh. Thanks to all the people for the wonderful time yesterday! Yays! =))

OH and thanks to xy for the handmade card I just received and Eileen Oh and Alvina for the chocs. =)))))

Okay mahjong time. =D

Let me tell you about the FUN stuff I've been up to during the week.

Wednesday
I woke up at 5am and had the runs for more than half the day. Jm got it worse - she woke up at 3am. Cm got it so bad she didn't come for work. I am BOYCOTTING that horrible stall.
But anyway, I still went to jog with yini and xj and ch at 7pm at bukit batok. I was considering not going but I'm really glad I went eventually. We did 5.2km and dragged ch 10rounds around the track. And ch is very entertaining. =P One day we should really do caterpillar! We did the run with beat thing that we used to do in np and I suspect the other people around us thought we were a little crazy, but whoever cares, we had fun! At this rate, we can go run at pandan soon! We went for supper after that and bong joined us. Eric called from camp too!
I love my squadmates. =)

Friday
I escaped from office at 6.30pm, just before my colleague could make a friendly request for me to post the office letters at the post office in town. Went to city hall to meet geraldine for dinner and while waiting for her to arrive, laid eyes on a really pretty ring that was much too overpriced. I am not entirely convinced that I shouldn't get it but I think I should give up on that idea soon. Been spending a lot recently. =X But its so pretty! =(
We went for drinks at Loof after dinner and got nice, big, cushioned seats. Sadly though, the drinks didn't meet expectations. But we had a nice time and I liked both our dresses! Haha..

Tomorrow! Is VALENTINE's DAY.
And tmr is gonna be a busy day! I need to wake up at like 6 so I have an hour to do my electone work. My parents would prob be up around 7 and then we'll go for breakfast. After which, I'm meeting ch and the rest at 10 to go for the ntu talks that I've finally convinced my lazy self to go for. There's electone lesson at 4.15 and then dinner with the 2a people at 5.30! YAYS. I just want to be out lor. Its a good thing I'm working, else I don't see how I'm going to be able to finance my new habits. =X

Alrightt. I don't have much time to sleep alrdy. But oh dear, there's a lizard in the room. HOW! Rahhs. Geraldine's cat would be useful. Heh.

I'm so moody and restless today. =(

Totally didn't have mood for work today and I think my colleague actually realised that. But its a monday, I slept late and still not well last night, I'm annoyed over some matter, and I didn't even have a com to play with at lunch! I was stoning and fiddling with my phone cos I don't have a table OR a com to myself even though I have been in office for 2 months and counting. Sheeeeeesh.

Anybody up for dinner and maybe drinks on sat? So sad to have nth to do on v day!

Its all yr fault. Too bad! Hmph.





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I really like this song.

I am very upset. Why? Because
1) My interview candidate left w/o filling her forms and I hate not doing my job well
2) It has been exactly a month since 6th jan
3) My phone switched itself off so I didn't know my parents were getting to me at past midnight
4) I am getting fatter
5) There is tuition tmr
6) I hate A levels
7) I am very very cold
There's so much to say but I suddenly don't feel like writing about any of it. I am cold and tired and very moody. I keep thinking about how short our relationship actually was. I realise half of was problematic.
Thanks geraldine for yr bear. It has been really helpful of late. Heh.
I want to fall into a deep slumber with my bear and not wake up. Its too small to eat me anyway.
Let time come to a stand still now.

I want a new blog skin! But I cannot find anything that I like. I think I'll take the sheep one. its kinda cute. Hehh. I get bored easily. Oh Well.

I don't want to work. I want to sleep. and read. and sleep some more. I want an entire day to sleep.


OOOO Look at THIS!!!




SO PRETTY!!! =D

I need exercise! Goodness. Went rock-climbing at Yishun Safra on Sat with BB/GB/FA/TTB. I only climbed the wall ONCE and I didn't even make it to the top. But guess what, I'm already aching real bad. I seriously need to start working out soon. Thankfully there's our first sundown training on wed at gombak at like, eh, 8pm! Hahaa.. I'm quite excited about it. I'm quite excited about the race actually. Hehh. Tomorrow I shall go jog in the evening instead of going to town to waste more money.

I just borrowed my bro's organisational behaviour text! Sounds kinda crazy but I'm feeling the heat even before results are out. I want to enjoy what I study in uni. But I know that isn't possible if I have to rush while I'm studying. Also, I take quite a while to appreciate theory. I wanna know what I'm going into in uni, wanna make sure JC doesn't repeat itself. And besides, its been a long time since I last read books! My EL has deproved tremendously so hopefully this helps. YEA.

I sound like I know a lot, but trust me, I don't. I know nuts. HAHA.

Alright. Off to bed. Nights!